doing my part...

So first of all I need to give a huge shout out to my buddy Ms. M for getting this idea and this blog going. She rocks in a major way!! :)

Now on to doing my part, I'm not nearly as eloquent in my blogging as she is but I am both excited and terrified with what lies ahead. I don't know another way to put it!

I'm excited because I have a goal and a partner to help me accomplish it.

I'm terrified because I have a goal and a partner that I could possibly let down by not doing my part.

I am determined though. I've been feeling blue, feeling stuck in same ol' same ol' weight range for so long. Sad because I haven't pushed myself farther, harder. I've gotten weak again, weak enough to stop thinking of my needs and always putting the needs of others first. I'm coming around though.

I owe it to my partner in this challenge and all of you- who support me virtually and in real life in this journey- to put myself first. Me first because if I don't. I will fail you and I will fail me.

The first step in the right direction begain yesterday. I reactivated my gym membership. I signed up for a Kettlebell class every Thursday. I am recommitting to my physical needs for exercise.

The second step- well I'm still working on it. I'm going to see my PCP about my moods, and other health issues that I think have been impacting my weightloss. The second step is harder for me because I have to ask for help. I never do that. I think I came to the realization that I have to just a couple of weeks ago. I admitted that I was lying to myself, just pretending that I was doing fine. I think I am doing okay, but I know I could be doing better- does any of that make sense?

So really- to bring it full circle, this is about doing my part. Doing my part in the challenge, but more importantly doing my part to take better care of myself so that I don't miss out on my own potential to be even more fabulous than I am today- so here's to our challenges, and here's to us ladies (and gent's too)!

Let's do this!